Impeach W!

As put so eloquently a few days ago

2004-09-10T00:59:24Z

by Brandon,

"You need love."

Yes,
yes I do....

SO!
Heres my bitchin p'orangeofagoal,

I need a:
nonasshole
nonmanwhore
nonexgirfriendobssessed
promonogamy
intelligent
literate!!!!!!!!!! (<--- this one is key!)
dominating (hey! I have needs...)
the one above makes me laugh,
but,
back to the list,
extremelyextremelyweirdandveryveryopensothatidontscarethemaway
pixies loving (<--- this one too is key)
musicobssessed
nottoocrazysocialthattheyreanassholetomebecauseimnotanattentionwhoreeverysecondaroundpeopleidontevenfuckingknow(nothatimbitterovertakingshitforthat...)
and, just not too too crazy social in general
(yay for being socially awkward!)
XhXcXweirdass
sweet
nicetome
boyfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IM NEVER GOING TO FIND ANYONE!
WWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This weeks been boring,
EVERYONE TO THE OTHER JESSICAS HOUSE THIS WEEKEND!
Shes making food for people,
its going to be supercool,
because,
FREE FOOD!
and,
MY CLONE!

COME!

Hmm, I wanna do something interesting this weekend,
because,
this week has been quite uninteresting.

I miss Rebecca,
:: is sad::

EMO CAMERON IS AN EVIL EVIL WHORE!
That I love.
mostly...

The cd I burned for Brandon is officially the perfect mix cd,
and you all must worship it.

thars it,
nothing really,

I LOVE THE PIXIES!
AND ALASTAIR!
AND ORGASMIC FRANK BLACK!
YES!

"... and if i could be,
who you wanted,
if i could be,
who you wanted,

all the time,
all the time..."

- "...everything inside is made of stone..."

" Oh my baby, baby,

2004-09-09T02:18:06Z

I love you more then I can tell,
I, don't think I can live, without you,
and I know that I never will,

Oh my baby, baby,
I want you so it scares me to death,
I can't say anymore that I love you,
everything else,
is waste,
of breath...."

So, yeah, so so so so so so so so so so much to write,
summary time.

Rocky
was
the
SHHHHHHEEEEEE-AAAATTTTTTT!!!!!!

LEAH AND REBECCA AND CAITLIN AND KYLE AND KATI AND LEAH'S FRIENDS!!!!!
It was like, the perfect group of people,
it was crazy awesome,
even though Brandon And Alastair's emoasses didn't come!!!!
I was so messed up on the RedBull Leah gave me!
I LOVE YOOUUUU LEAHH!!!
I was like,
threeyearold mode,
ROCKY HORROR!
AND PEOPLE I LOVE!
AND MY WIFE KATI!
OHMYGOD!
HELL YES!

SOOOOO, SOOO HYPERRRRRR!!!!!

Saturday my parents were pissed so I stayed home,
Sunday Dragoncon with Alix and Nyssa,
both of whom I love,
their LOTR obssessions make me laugh,
even though, considering me at Rocky,
I have no right to.

SUnDAY NIGHT!
CAITLIN!
AND PIZZA!
We stayed up all night iming people and watching SEALAB 2021!
THE GREATEST SHOW!
EVER!
So fun!
that weird spastic entry with alastair in it is a better summary of that night,
SOOO FUNNN!!!
Monday,
nothing,
Tuesday,
Power went out!
WOOO!
Today,
Kati gave me a ride to Latin Club so I actually made it on time which was crazy cool,
since,
I somehow ended up as the treasurer.
Poetry Club this afternoon,
IIII LLLOOOOVVVEEEEC POETRY CLUB!
ALL MUST JOIN!
AS WELL AS LATIN!

"...I want you,
you had your fun, you don't get well no more,
I want you,
your fingernails go dragging down the wall,
be careful darlin, you might fall,
I want you,
I woke up and one of us was crying,
I want you,
you said young man I do believe you're dying,
I want you,
if you need a second opinion, as you seem to do these days,
I want you,
you can look in my eyes, and you can count the ways,
I want you,
did you mean to tell me, but seem to forget,
I want you,
since when were you so generous and inarticulate,
I want you,
its the stupid details,
that my heart is breaking for,
its the way your shoulders shake, and what they're
shaking for,
I want you,
its knowing that he knows you now, after only guessing,
its the thought of him undressing you, or you,
undressing,
I want you,
you toss some tatty compliment, you're away,
I want you,
and you were fool enough, to love it,
when he said,
I want you,
I want you,
the truth can't hurt you, its just like the dark,
it scares you with it,
but in time you'll see things,
clear and stark,
I want you,
go on and hurt me,
then we'll let it drop,
I want you,
I'm afraid I won't know, where to stop,
I want you,
I'm not ashamed to say, I cried for you,
I want you,
I want to know, the things you did,
that we do too,
I want you,
I want to hear he pleases you, more then I do,
I want you,
I might as well be useless, for all it means to you,
I want you,
did you call his name out, as he held you down,
I want you,
oh no my darling,
not with that clown,
I want you,
I want you,
you've had your fun you don't get well no more,
I want you,
o one who wants you, could want you more,
I want you,
I want you,I want you,
every night when I go off to bed,
and when I wake up,
I want you,
I'm going to say it, once again,
till I instill it,
I'm going, going, to feel this way,
until you,
kill it,
I want you,
I,
want you,
I,
want you."

Memories... ::tear::

2004-09-06T18:30:36Z

DYWC TO THE MIZZAX!

TACO DANCE!
HELL YEA-AHS!

hehe
thats none of your damn business....

AWWWW!
ITS MARYYYYYYYY!!!!
IM HER SEXAY KITTY SLAVE!

kinky!
kind of!

Prettaaaaay Leah!
KORI IS MY COATHANGERLOVER!!!!!!!!

Kate knows where Jesus is!
IDAHO BITCHES!

XHXCX BAG BEAYATCH!

:: orgasms to death::

Desolation.

IM GETTING MARRIED!
TO LEAH!
YEAH!!!

Is western civilization!
Hanging on by its last popsicley tendril!!!

The empty straws represent the economy under Bush,
and the straw in the glass is Bush sucking away at our economy!!!!
MAN!

I don't even remember what that represents,
but damn is it cool!

A perfect summary I think.

YOUTH CREATES Promotes Canadiadians the Spread of AIDS Creepy Middleaged Hippies Pick-up Lines and "Emoality"

AWWW!
ITS EMO CAMERON AND SMOKEYSOAPIESOPHIESOPHAYYYYYYY!!!!

:: emo tears::

haha,
SITTING SEX YO!

Nice to know how much Brizzandon cares about me.

I have no idea,
but,
HOORAY!

I love those whacked out mofos.

What happens when middleaged hippy guys tell theo he has beautiful eyes???

THEO WITH HIS DAMN CD THEIVERY!

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

I love how I have so many fucking dywc pictures and I had to struggle to find youthcreatesones...

GAWD WE HAD SOME GOOD TIMES!!!!
I MISS YOU ALL!
BITCHASSES!!!
SONSOBITCHES!
HOS FROM HONADIA!
OFF THE HOMERICAN CONTINENT!
xxxxdexathxxxx

some damn good times.

iontevenknow,
iontevencare.

<3

CAITLIN AND JESSICA! YOU ARE TOTALLY THE COOLEST!

2004-09-06T06:09:11Z

I totally already knew that.

i told you once fatty, you can either hold it or PEE in that wetsuit!!!

you mean theres a,
white stormy?

she is a feirce and fickle mistress.

sniff you jerks later!

if you want something yummy,
put a happy cake in your tummy!

i have to lay down back
because our concussion have me sleepy

y dont u call bruce springsteen and tell him to get another nickname, cuz ur already the boss!

wats that ben?
you laid your brood of eggs in my naval?
thats great!
we're going to be mommies!

oops. dart in your neck!

"eat some more pills pillhead"
" mardok, you totally rule"
"i totally already knew that!"

its like theres a knife in my eye, and ur twisting it!

you have 5 seconds to be on ur mark and in wardrobe or i wil personally climb inside ur abdominal cavity and make a little house in there for my dogs to play in!

" mother i come bearing a gift!
I'll give you a hint,
its in my diaper and its not a toaster."

i want food do you have

Jessica: try it again
Caitlin: I'll try your mom again!!!
Jessica: *shaking kinky fist of fury* not till im finished

fuck the shut up...that officially your new name
my name?
no....the little man in my head
oh i thought that was micheal jackson, boy was i wrong.....

you'll be red, and you'll like it!
but i want to be pink!
red...like a hot...sexy tomali

fuck the shut up you dirty cacti humping ho bag

bipolarclowns: u can bite caitlin!!
HeaterBeMyLover: what?
bipolarclowns: you heard me!
HeaterBeMyLover: what're you talking about?
bipolarclowns: oh! i think u know!
HeaterBeMyLover: I'm so confused?
bipolarclowns: lies
HeaterBeMyLover: what?
bipolarclowns: u a ho
HeaterBeMyLover: Jessica, I have no idea what you're talking about and if you don't either leave me alone or tell me I'll block you
bipolarclowns: caitlin is here and you said ew to the away messege so i, caitlin said you can bite me but then i didnt want you to know i was here so i said 'you can bite caitlin' hence jessica saying 'you can bite caitlin' so....this was all just a big misunder----APLLE SAUCE!!
HeaterBeMyLover: what?
bipolarclowns: ok look, take a deeeeeep breath, sit down, have a cup of coffeee and tell me when you're ready
HeaterBeMyLover: ready
bipolarclowns: ok
bipolarclowns: i am here
bipolarclowns: this is caitlin
bipolarclowns: are you with me so far?
HeaterBeMyLover: yes
bipolarclowns: ok well i put up that away messege and you said eww right?
HeaterBeMyLover: right
bipolarclowns: ok
bipolarclowns: so in response to you saying eww i was going to say bite me
HeaterBeMyLover: oh
bipolarclowns: but then didnt want you to know i was here so i said 'you can bite caitlin'
bipolarclowns: got it??
HeaterBeMyLover: yeah
bipolarclowns: ok, so we're all on the same page?
HeaterBeMyLover: yeah
bipolarclowns: ok, good
bipolarclowns: so how are you funny man?
HeaterBeMyLover: is this caitlain?
bipolarclowns: YES!!
bipolarclowns: lol
HeaterBeMyLover: oh
HeaterBeMyLover: now I get it
bipolarclowns: but you spelled my name wrong
HeaterBeMyLover: oh well
bipolarclowns: now...?? what!?!?
bipolarclowns: jessica does not say lol dammit!
HeaterBeMyLover: yeeeeeeeah
HeaterBeMyLover: Okkkaaaaaaaay
bipolarclowns: yes so anyway
HeaterBeMyLover: Whhhhhhhat
bipolarclowns: what?!?1
HeaterBeMyLover: lil' john ho
bipolarclowns: umm yeah...
bipolarclowns: wait...who told you?!?!
bipolarclowns: who sowed you that video tape?!!?
HeaterBeMyLover: told me?
bipolarclowns: da,mnit!
HeaterBeMyLover: videotape?
bipolarclowns: lol
HeaterBeMyLover: doubleyouteeef are you talking about?
HeaterBeMyLover: What're feces?
HeaterBeMyLover: Baby mice
HeaterBeMyLover: AWWWWWWWW\
bipolarclowns: shiut my friend
bipolarclowns: awww??
bipolarclowns: dont you 'awww' me
HeaterBeMyLover: it's from donnie darko hoface
HeaterBeMyLover: Ruler sex cookies!
bipolarclowns: kinky sex in which you beat eachother with rulars and force them to eat cookies...
bipolarclowns: not that i've ever done anything of the sort...
bipolarclowns: *shifty eyes*
HeaterBeMyLover: with trevor mayhaps?
bipolarclowns: *puts ruer back into my pants and runs away*
bipolarclowns: what?!!?
bipolarclowns: ....that'd be nice...
bipolarclowns: lol, hes got quite an ass...
HeaterBeMyLover: ewwww
bipolarclowns: mmm.....treeevor *drools*
bipolarclowns: well then dont bring it up
!
HeaterBeMyLover: well, you have a thing for trevor and I just figured you know...
bipolarclowns: HAD, not have
HeaterBeMyLover: have
bipolarclowns: had
HeaterBeMyLover: why not have?
bipolarclowns: cause..he goes out with natelie and i dont/ever did have a chance with him...??
HeaterBeMyLover: he goes out with natalie?
bipolarclowns: yeah, where the hell have you been?
HeaterBeMyLover: she has hot hair
bipolarclowns: lol indeed she does
bipolarclowns: and i dont...and thats hwy he doesnt like me
HeaterBeMyLover: well I don't hang out with anyof your people
bipolarclowns: oh
HeaterBeMyLover: that's where the hell I've been
bipolarclowns: ah well then, i see yuo are far too cool for all of those...people that i would hang out with if i were in school
HeaterBeMyLover: ...ho
bipolarclowns: i know:-(:-(
HeaterBeMyLover: No, I'm lame I hang out with freshman and jessica
bipolarclowns: whats wrong with jessica? (she really did leave this time0
HeaterBeMyLover: wait, she wasn't gone????????????
bipolarclowns: haha im kidding
HeaterBeMyLover: /\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/
HeaterBeMyLover: emo
bipolarclowns: ?!?
bipolarclowns: who?
HeaterBeMyLover: /\/\/\/\/\/\/\/ <----This is emo
bipolarclowns: how is that emo
bipolarclowns: ??
bipolarclowns: wait...lets back up...
HeaterBeMyLover: if you were emo/had emo friends you'd know
bipolarclowns: oh well pardon
bipolarclowns: now lets take that trip through time shall me?
bipolarclowns: *we
bipolarclowns: mmm this chaor is comfyu
bipolarclowns: god damnit
bipolarclowns: im going to kill someone now
HeaterBeMyLover: what
bipolarclowns: lol
bipolarclowns: this chaor is comfy
bipolarclowns: see!!
bipolarclowns: for fucks sake
HeaterBeMyLover: chaor?
bipolarclowns: exactly
bipolarclowns: if you were...none emo/could read my thoughts you would know
bipolarclowns: *not
bipolarclowns: fucking fucker...
HeaterBeMyLover: I'm not emo, I'm Indie
bipolarclowns: i cant type!!
bipolarclowns: ok
HeaterBeMyLover: I wear tight pants and blazers and thriftstore shirts
bipolarclowns: ....ok
bipolarclowns: so what am i?
HeaterBeMyLover: pop shit
bipolarclowns: cause like...everyone is something
i am not you crazy motherfucker!
bipolarclowns: you lose!
bipolarclowns: i hate you now!
HeaterBeMyLover: I (heart) catlain
bipolarclowns: no!
HeaterBeMyLover: :-*
bipolarclowns: cause you cant even spell my name:-(:-(
HeaterBeMyLover: :-*
bipolarclowns: how dare you call me pop shit?? im sad now
bipolarclowns: yeah those happy faces wont get you anywhere!
bipolarclowns: especially not my pants!
HeaterBeMyLover: grow some balls
bipolarclowns: you first
bipolarclowns: im sad now
HeaterBeMyLover: I'd probably wear your pants first
bipolarclowns: wait...you'd wear my pants before growing balls?
bipolarclowns: well that isnt saying much is it?
HeaterBeMyLover: yes, yes I wauld
bipolarclowns: i rest my case, i suppose
HeaterBeMyLover: no I'd wear your pants before getting in them
bipolarclowns: oooooh haha only because i wouldnt let you in my pants
HeaterBeMyLover: but I'd have to be in your pants to be wearing them
bipolarclowns: .....ok now you're just being stupid1
HeaterBeMyLover: or maybe I'm smart
bipolarclowns: or maybe you should ---fuck the shut up!
HeaterBeMyLover: yes I SHOULD
bipolarclowns: im glad we agree!!!
bipolarclowns: now please lie stil wilst i shove this peanut butter up your ass!
HeaterBeMyLover: I think you should gimmie your pants
HeaterBeMyLover: um
HeaterBeMyLover: um
HeaterBeMyLover: um
HeaterBeMyLover: um
HeaterBeMyLover: um
HeaterBeMyLover: um
HeaterBeMyLover: yeAH
bipolarclowns: IM PREGNANT!
HeaterBeMyLover: and?
bipolarclowns: SUPRISE!
HeaterBeMyLover: who the baby daddy be?
bipolarclowns: that is none of your damn buissnessssss
HeaterBeMyLover: then why tell me?
bipolarclowns: because,
bipolarclowns: SUPRISE!
HeaterBeMyLover: ><><><><><><><><><><><><><><>><<
bipolarclowns: i knew you would say that
bipolarclowns: damn hippy
bipolarclowns: you were never there for me
HeaterBeMyLover: what?
HeaterBeMyLover: fs
HeaterBeMyLover: f
HeaterBeMyLover: fv
HeaterBeMyLover: fv
HeaterBeMyLover: r
HeaterBeMyLover: f
HeaterBeMyLover: g
HeaterBeMyLover: fd
HeaterBeMyLover: ds
bipolarclowns: see!
bipolarclowns: why do you always do this!!
bipolarclowns: im not mentally stable enough tp put up with this abuse!
bipolarclowns: im leaving!
HeaterBeMyLover: JESSICA
bipolarclowns: ITS NOT JESSICA!!
bipolarclowns: THIS IS THE LITTLE VOICE IN CAITLINS HEAD, DAMNIT!
HeaterBeMyLover: you sound like her
bipolarclowns: WHY DONT YOU PEOPLE EVER LISTEN TO ME
bipolarclowns: NO!! SHE USES COMMAS ALL THE DAMN TIME LIKE ,,,, WOAH!!
bipolarclowns: shes being bitter now
HeaterBeMyLover: tuff ghost, tuff crowd, tuff love
sit down sit down sit down
bipolarclowns: ?!?
bipolarclowns: look, we all need a little love from time to time, but i think you're taking it a little too far
HeaterBeMyLover: hahahahahaha
bipolarclowns: and just so you know, i will continue standing
bipolarclowns: see you people ALWAYS laugh at me
bipolarclowns: you NEVER take me seriously!
bipolarclowns: one of these days im gonna be like 'hey guess what guy?!? im going to kill myself!
bipolarclowns: and you'll all laugh!!
HeaterBeMyLover: probably
bipolarclowns: .......
bipolarclowns: ya know im starting to agree with jessica here..you are kinda mean...whens the last time you got laid?
bipolarclowns: cause you know...that does it sometimes
bipolarclowns: i bet if bush got a little bush we wouldnt be ay war
bipolarclowns: *at war
HeaterBeMyLover: hahhahahahhashdsbkjsjkxbhkahhahahaha
bipolarclowns: but i would fuck his wife either *shudders
bipolarclowns: hahahaha
bipolarclowns: jessica did it!!
bipolarclowns: ahahaa!!
bipolarclowns: wat???
bipolarclowns: burn inhell!
bipolarclowns: you first ho bag!
bipolarclowns: its a date then! hooray!
bipolarclowns: yeah havent had one of those in a while ey?!?!
bipolarclowns: HEY!
bipolarclowns: no...
bipolarclowns: :-[h hah
bipolarclowns: ah ha!!
bipolarclowns: i mean...cause you know..i go out all the time...
HeaterBeMyLover: I need a bong hit
bipolarclowns: yay!
bipolarclowns: us tooooooooooooooooooooooo---pay
bipolarclowns: ALASTAIR! IM NOT ANNOYING! THATS BULLSHE_AT!
bipolarclowns: sit down and shut up jessica1
bipolarclowns: and put that butter where it belongs
bipolarclowns: maybe i will caitlin! maybe i will...
HeaterBeMyLover: what?
bipolarclowns: i told you to call me master damnit!!1
bipolarclowns: cancel print!!
bipolarclowns: cancel!!
bipolarclowns: danger will robenson!!
bipolarclowns: dont judge me!
HeaterBeMyLover: u,
bipolarclowns: its my hot body!
HeaterBeMyLover: ummm
bipolarclowns: oh so hot...
bipolarclowns: like FIYAH
bipolarclowns: whos hot?
bipolarclowns: ok, now im talking to you not the crazy bitch behind me
bipolarclowns: HEY! ITS MY LIFE! ILL MAKE MOnEY HOWEVER I NEED TO!
bipolarclowns: get back in the cage bitch
HeaterBeMyLover: I was thinking maybe you two need to be alone
bipolarclowns: no
bipolarclowns: its better with three;-)
bipolarclowns: now, who do you think is hot?
HeaterBeMyLover: um
HeaterBeMyLover: at graady
HeaterBeMyLover: ?
bipolarclowns: sure
HeaterBeMyLover: natalie's hair is pretty awesome
bipolarclowns: indeed
bipolarclowns: that doesnt really count though
bipolarclowns: i said hot not 'who has hot things growing out of thier head'
bipolarclowns: damnit!
HeaterBeMyLover: read my profile
bipolarclowns: you ponder that conundrum (dont give a fuck how you spell it) wilst i go get food out her fridge...yo
HeaterBeMyLover: brng me food
HeaterBeMyLover: Thi is hot
Auto response from bipolarclowns: i want food do you have
bipolarclowns: that slutty chick?
HeaterBeMyLover: THI IS NOT SLUTTY
bipolarclowns: umm.....are we talking about the same girl?
HeaterBeMyLover: the vietnamese senior?
bipolarclowns: yeah, ok i guess she isnt slutty cause i mean if i looked like her i would make sure everyone knew too
HeaterBeMyLover: no, she does look kinda slutty, but she's not
bipolarclowns: mhm, ok wel she is a total bitch i know that much
HeaterBeMyLover: she is not
bipolarclowns: yeah huh
HeaterBeMyLover: not if you get to know her
bipolarclowns: after speanding as many hours with her on debate trips, i've come to the conclusion that she is a bitch...and thats all that matters
HeaterBeMyLover: she is not a bitch
HeaterBeMyLover: she's really nice
HeaterBeMyLover: maybe she doesn't like you
bipolarclowns: have you ever speant an enitre weekend with her?
bipolarclowns: well good for her, she can join the fucking club
HeaterBeMyLover: because you do tend to rub people the wrong way
bipolarclowns: how?
HeaterBeMyLover: I don't know, not me, just people
bipolarclowns: ok well then 'people' can go fuck themselves with a cactus
bipolarclowns: hahaha, that made me laugh
bipolarclowns: but i love u caitlin, even though i knoc stuff over... :-[
HeaterBeMyLover: what?
bipolarclowns: pay no attention to the girl behind the curtain
bipolarclowns: but back to me rubbing people
HeaterBeMyLover: hahahahhahahhahahahahazhahahahsadghaghaSHAsgdsahgsayhaGSSXJHY
bipolarclowns: yes, so how and who do i rub...the wrong way that is...because i think i would know if i rubbed someone the right way
bipolarclowns: who does jessica need to beat with the baseball bat of justice ho!
HeaterBeMyLover: chole maybe//

BOOBIES AGAINST BUSH

2004-08-30T01:44:16Z

Oh!
Those little five points hippy folkseseses...
I love them,

Matt (the weirdass hatted but cool one) burned me an awesome cdizzle for my birthday,
possibly second only to the poem alastair wrote me,
HAHAHA!
God,
funny as hell.....
Oh, i wuzezezez you Alastair!

TODAY!
I completed two of my longstanding goals,
and,
my overall day was just cool.

You just watch me go through with this lesbian thing!
Oh!
It'll work!
You just wait!
Maybe!
Not...

I saw alix,
and we got coffee and sexay stuff like thatbecause everything we do together is obviously sexay,
then I found myself stranded, by myself, in this caribou coffeee in some part of midtwn I wasn't so familiar with,
but Kati came and saved me from angry coffee people.
WOO!
YAY KATI!
We went to centennial and had all kinds of fun in the fountains and with the grass rolling and absolutelyperfectgorgousrain,
and, of course,
crazy LESBIAN SEX!
( since, thats all I do,
oh,
except for cry I guess
LEAH!)

Well, I went to Caitlin's thing which was,
okay,
but but,
Kyle was all sick and didn't come,
and and,
iono,
I wanted to see Kyzile!
but, I saw ramika and matt and such,
and caitlin one more time before she leaves for
ECUADOR!
That was good.

But, my favorite part was probably me and Kati finally finding all those missionary baptist churches we'd been searching for.....
(in other words, getting crazy lost in some not so nice part of atlanta),
haha, my favorite conversation piece:

Kati: I love freedom parkway!
Jessica: Well why don't you go marry it then!
huh?!? huh !?!?
Kati: You can't make me!!!!

loves times a million!

So, pretty good birthdizzle,

ROCKY HORROR THIS NEXT FRIDAY!
I hope...

- I may be emo,
but I'm the most asskicken emo beayatch you ever saw
(hehe, "beayatch"
that spelling makes me laugh)

" Love."

2004-08-29T01:14:22Z

By: Beau Sia

I think love
is the most beautiful thing
in the world
and I don't give a fuck,
because I have no original ideas.
I'm a pathetic man
whose goal is to read poetry
to get women
to fall in love with him,
and you'd think I was reprimanding myself
and revealing my horrible dark side
by saying that,
but I was really saying,

"women who hear this, fall in love with me,
or else."
because that's what it comes down to-
an ultimatum,
life or death,
and sure,
maybe I'm being extreme,
but you tell me that things aren't extreme.
jesus,
I've seen a man jack-off to a gap window display,
so don't tell me
that love isn't important.
and maybe you don't get me yet,
that's okay,
you don't have to understand all of it,
just listen to the crucial 12 percent of my words,
like,
"fuck," and "ass," and
"ride my dongstick you naughty schoolgirl!"
because in a poem about love
we all need to know
the relevant things,
because we are all looking
for the complete definition
of love,
if only we could open up
our encyclopedia brittanicas
and know,
but love isn't that easy.

they say cupid loved freaks and geeks,
and when the show was cancelled
cupid cried and cried and cried
and decided that he was gonna fuck up
all of humanity,
and this is why china has trouble
with its birthrate,
and arkansas ryhmes with date rape,
and the fat lypo-sucked out of california
could be its own island,
but this isn't a poem about geography.

this is a poem about love,
the bane of my existence,
the reason why I hate valentine's day
and halloween,
which is about ghosts,
and I think you know where I'm going here.

I'm going to the land of
girlfriends of halloween's pasts,
and maybe I've only got three girls
in this land,
but that doesn't mean they don't bring their
friends,
who are the ghosts of girls
who have rejected me,
because girls rarely travel alone
in this land,
lydia is from this land.
I used to kiss her
while listening to the cure's
"just like heaven."
now I don't see her anymore,
so that song makes me sad.
why must we associate music
with our love lives?
I'm not trying to be profound here,
I'm just saying that
music takes me back,
way back,
and I can't explain the memory process involved
in that,
because I wasn't a psychology major,
and maybe my problem
with picking up women
has to do with me always asking them,
"yo, shorty! what's your major?"

but that only makes me as cheesy as 90 percent
of guys looking for women
and 72 percent of them have women,
so what's the deal here?

Maybe I shouldn't think of women
in terms of picking them up,
and maybe I should open up my sensitive side.
but really,
the sensitive side sucks!
I've been there!
you can only imagine
the kinds of sweaters they make you wear!
it's not fair.
love is not fair,
and war is not fair,
and I don't care what you say
about any of that,
I feel unloved.
I'm sorry I need people to tell me I'm cool.
I'm just that way.
aren't you?
am I the only one?
I know that I can't be that misunderstood,
but you don't want to understand me.

you just want to hear the part
about my small dick again,
because the asian man
will always be plagued by
this rumor,
until he is brave enough to whip it out on stage
and say,
"ha! we are gigantic!"

honestly,
this is not
the direction
I wanted to take this poem.
I just want to be in the arms of my true love,
in a house, in a room, in a wonderful,
perfect world,
with our two children, a boy and a girl,
helga and lamar.

but maybe I shouldn't have said this.
woody allen taught as that marriage
is the death trap.
I'm almost as old as his girlfriend.
she could be the long lost sister
I've been looking for.
maybe my mother gave her away
when we lived in china-
wait!
I never lived in china.
I've begun lying in this poem,
when all I wanted to do
was talk about love
for 3.2 minutes
and then come to a conclusion
defining love
within this poem,
but I don't have any answers,
and I'm looking for help from anyone,
because love
has got me fucked up and dying,
because I feel retardo
without anyone to hold me,
and maybe that's sentimental,
but what's wrong with sentimental?

all I'm saying is
"someone. love me."

So, today was good fun with leah,
tomorrow should be good fun with the getting passed around yo,
haha,
I love kati,
she randomly followed me home yesterday,
which was too cool!
IIIII LOOOOOVVVVEEEEE YYYYOOOUUUUU KAAAATTTTIIIII!!!!
everyone go to caitlin's thing!
or else!!!!!!!!!

- the now declared emo by leah jessica
:'(

"... and super heroes come to feast,

2004-08-27T01:06:52Z

upon the flesh not yet decceased.."

For alastair,
he wanted me to apparently,

HeaterBeMyLover: yes
HeaterBeMyLover: because I (heart) you
bipolarclowns: :-D
HeaterBeMyLover: and because you're doing newspaper next year

surrrrrrre I am......

Well, I'll think about it...

I'm sort of pissed, well,
at Chris,
because,
a lot of things,
specifically,
that I'm not and was not,
ever assertive enough to confront him about his bullshit,
because,
grr.
since my plan is to cut him off completely and just try to get past it all and pretend it didn't happen,
I guess it's too late now.
Yeah,
when will I learn,
guys who repeatedly declare themselves nonassholes,
tend to be ones...

"... but when worlds colide,
I'm gonna give you some terrible thrills..."

BUT!
I don't think my birthday is going to suck.
I'm going to go see Alix that morning,
go rolling in the grass with kati that afternoon,,
bother roman later on that afternoon,
and then go to caitlin's thing!
WOO!
AND!
EVERYONE COME TO ROCKY HORROR THE FRIDAY AFTER THIS NEXT ONE!
AND I GETSA SEE LEAH!
CUZ!
IM HER FUCKMUFFIN!
TIMES!
A BAZILLION!

justgray608: nothin pumpkin
bipolarclowns: pumpkin??? ahhahaha
justgray608: oh you know you like my mad rymin skills

YES!
Only cameron would call me pumpkin,
thats great!
awesome.

ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOU
wow,
those words have come to mean nothing to me.

REBECCA!
You're still coming right???

"... you're spaced out on sensation..."

:: time warps::

: because I'm the kind of person who'd just time warp like that::

:: deal with it!!::

::or!!! don't i guess!!!!::

"... so you can't see me,
no,
not at all..."

<3 for kyzile!
Because,
I have nothing else really to say..
WOO!
AGAIN!

OH!
AND FOR JESSICA!
( the other :)

YES JIMMY FALLON!!!
OH GOD YES!!!

"... I know what you want,
and I know what you need,
but I'm gonna screw it up,
cuz I'm an idiot,
and I'm your boyfriend.."

ha,
it's true.
Except me!
I'm a perfect boyfriend!
:: shifts eyes::

"... and NOTHING
CAN EVER
be the same..."

- PUMPKIN!
:)
".. I'm just a sweet transvestite.."

HAPPPEEEEEE ALASTAIR!!!!!!!
???????
!!!!!!!

" When I was young,

2004-08-25T00:03:45Z

Younger then before,
I never see saw the truth,
Hanging from the door,
And now I'm older
See it face to face
And now i'm older,
Gotta get up,
Clean the place,
And I was green,
Greener then the hills,
Where flowers grow,
And sun shines still,
Now I'm darker,
Then the deepest sea,
Just hand me down,
Give me a place to be,
And I was strong,
Strong inside,
Thought I'd see,
When they was done,
Now I'm weaker,
Then the the palest blue,
Oh so weak,

in this need for you."

:: is out of love,
or...
trying to be...::

ESTABO SERVIDO!

2004-08-24T01:16:20Z

Yes I did...
yes I did..

and it hurt like a mother.

Sohpie!
Now we can both go listen to Nick Drake and be angsty relationshipless people,
except,
that things probably going to work with Joe because you're super cool,
so I'll just go into my corner and be angstyrelationshpless...

I shouldv'e stuck with asexual,
I'm not fit for human contact...

: (

- "... and crawling on the planet's face.
some insect called the human race,
lost in time and lost in space,

and meaning..."

"... it came from,

2004-08-22T15:58:21Z

outer space,
and this is how the message ran:

SCIENCE FICTION
DOUBLE FEATURE
DR X
WILL BUILD A CREATURE
ANDROIDS FIGHTING
(and fucking, and sucking on...)
BRAD AND JANET..."

If you can't tell I'm going into serious Rocky Horror withdrawel.

"... WOO!
Here it comes again..."

Can't...

" and to think just last week she was plain old
( betty the ho!)..."

Stop...

"... I really love the,
skillful way,
you beat the other wives,
(with whips and chains),

to the brides bouquet..."

Qouting...

"... I want,
if I may,
to take you,
( take me! take me!)
on a strange journey..."

Whatever happened to our Grady cast?
we can so find enough people I promise,

"...in the velvet darkness,
of the blackest night,
burning bright,
theres a guiding star,
no matter, who,
or what you are..."

"... THERES A LI-E-I-E-I-E-I-E-I-E-IGHT...."

"... the darkness must go,
down the river,
of nights dreaming,
through morpheus,
slow, let the sun,
and light come streaming,
into my life,
into my life..."

I blame chloe!
Because I CAN!

EEE!
NEED ROCKY HORROR!

"... its astounding,
time is fleeting,
madness,
takes its toll,
now listen closely,
not for very much longer,
I've got to,
keep control..."

I'll so be whoever,
male/female other
" Oh fantasy free me!"

" Hey! Any of you guys know how to madison?"

We should go the friday after next,
because I need to take Rebecca and I think thats when shes coming yes?

Also, since its the first friday after my bday, we could pretend that going then has something to do with that,

" They may do some more...
folk dancing...."

I have so much homework I should be doing right now...

"... I'm not much of a man by the light of day,
( we can see that),
but by night I'm one hell of a lover!..."

"... Give yourself over to,
absolute,

pleasure..."

- "... I don't like men with too many muscles,
( just one big one!)..."

I LUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUVVVVEEEE REBECCA

2004-08-20T02:10:34Z

She made my icon, which is so cool,
and the fact she remembered my hatred of the letter "w"
makes it that much sweeter.

Hm,
I'm trying to go to Rocky Horror but I'm worried if I go tomorrow night my parents won't let me go when you come down my wonderful Rebecca in two weeks. Plus, I don't think Leah or such can do any stuff, even Rocky Horror tomorrow night.
Hmmmmmmmmm.

I guess I'll see what happens,

I'm seriously thinking of stealing your letter thing Nyssa,
except,
I'm seriously not going to give mine to chris,
especially since I've already sent him some...

AUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I really needed to get that one out...

Brandon,
if you actually even read these anymore,
we are
GOING TO PHILIDELPHIA!
Because we never got to hang with theo outside of the camp thing,
and I'm sure hes Jessica/Brandon deprived.

Plus I need to visit Christa!
YEE CHRISTA!

- "... I believe,
in Mr. Grieves..."

It was cruel, the way she teased me...

2004-08-19T22:27:46Z

mmmm Johnny Depp: not sure im going to blondie
bipolarclowns: ????????
bipolarclowns: :: heart is broken::
mmmm Johnny Depp: ::passes the super glue::
bipolarclowns: :: sheds single film noir tear::
mmmm Johnny Depp: lol
bipolarclowns: :: starts to narrate self::
bipolarclowns: chloe laughed at my tears, now, but one day, she would regret it
mmmm Johnny Depp: would i jessica? would i really??
bipolarclowns: she questioned me, then i went off to have random passionate frenchindiemoviesex, and it was good, then i came back, i was still heartbroken at her rejection, i felt cold inside, cold like, snow, really... cold snow...
mmmm Johnny Depp: oh jesus jessica. that was beautiful.
bipolarclowns: i knew it was, bvut id never tell her, tell her the truth
bipolarclowns: wat were we talking about?
mmmm Johnny Depp: i probly wont be at blondie
bipolarclowns: ibshrugged it off in a casual manner, she craftly circled around the subject of why she couldn't go, was it, rejection! was there, someone else? i tried to think of something intelligent to quickly respond with
bipolarclowns: UR FACE!
mmmm Johnny Depp: oh. jessica. don't be this way. we've been thru too much. it cant just be over.
bipolarclowns: i was safe, shed never know the paranoia, the anxiety i was feeling, but, there were still so many questions, like, why? how could she? i wated to confront her
bipolarclowns: thats too bad u cant go
mmmm Johnny Depp: lol
mmmm Johnny Depp: yeah
mmmm Johnny Depp: wondering where j would go next, chloe bounced her knee nervously. she didn't want a confrontation, though she longed for the honest trust jessica and chloe once had.
bipolarclowns: she laughed it off causually, it was cruel, the was she teased me
bipolarclowns: i could tell she was nervous
mmmm Johnny Depp: she didnt know how nervous i was
bipolarclowns: i could taste it, in the air, with my... magical air tasting abilities...
bipolarclowns: which do exist goddamn you
mmmm Johnny Depp: like hell they do, hobag.
mmmm Johnny Depp: i mean. i knew what j was thinking--that she could taste the air, because she's schizo. but i knew better.
bipolarclowns: haha.. oh! oh! ur mom! goes to college! in her vagina! using the wittyness i had one her over with i combined two insults, into one, super insult, faster, stronger, more powerful then any insult ever before
mmmm Johnny Depp: you mean, wittiness,not wittyness, and one, not won
bipolarclowns: and by one i meant to type won
bipolarclowns: and i liked ys better
mmmm Johnny Depp: your y's can suck it
mmmm Johnny Depp: like ur mom, last night, at college.
mmmm Johnny Depp: what then?
bipolarclowns: she hit me, and she hit me hard, damn hard, i never saw it coming, it hurt inside, but, how i was able to hear her narration to know she had said those things, well, i guess we'll never know
bipolarclowns: and then jesus came
bipolarclowns: and we had a techno party
mmmm Johnny Depp: and said "let there be lips", and there were lips, and they were red
bipolarclowns: YES!
bipolarclowns: ROCKY HORROR!
bipolarclowns: one day, im so soending with commentary during my normal conversaions
bipolarclowns: yes, it wil be super pathetic
mmmm Johnny Depp: indeed, i thought to myself, overly confident that jessica had no idea what i was saying.
mmmm Johnny Depp: i'll do it with her, i thought to myself. and by do it with her i mean the commentary thing, not have hot lesbian sex.
bipolarclowns: unfortuneatly for myself and chloe we were both literate and able to read wat we were typing, damn i thought, i guess ill just have to fine someone else for hot lesbian sex, someone like! actually i have no idea who to go have hot lesbian sex with... but that was okay... it wasnt of course becayuse noone would probably ever have sex with me and id probably die a lonley virgin with many cats, actually, yes, yes would
mmmm Johnny Depp: the cats would devirginize you out of sheer pity, i think, before you died. ...i thought to myself
bipolarclowns: or, maybe after, either way, it wasnt looking good
mmmm Johnny Depp signed off at 6:01:49 PM.
mmmm Johnny Depp signed on at 6:02:04 PM.
bipolarclowns: she had leftme
bipolarclowns: oh wait, nevermind
bipolarclowns: i thought smoking a slim french cigarette except that i dont smoke
bipolarclowns: cuz im not XhXcX
bipolarclowns: wow, this conversation is so going in my livejournal
mmmm Johnny Depp: people who smoke are stupid. im going to kill them all before they kill me.
mmmm Johnny Depp: yay!!!!
mmmm Johnny Depp: i thought to myself
bipolarclowns: obviously chloe didnt understand the many wonders of lung cancer, like, coughing up blood, and, dying slowly
bipolarclowns: actually, neither did jessica
bipolarclowns: who, now apparently was speaking in third person
mmmm Johnny Depp: i vaguely wondered if maybe i just didnt understand the wonders of lung cancer, like coughing up blood and dying slowyly, but dismissed the thought
mmmm Johnny Depp: chloe decided she enjoyed third person pov, and switched to it as well
bipolarclowns: its because ur mom was a chea braziliam prostitute i thought to myself
bipolarclowns: and by chea
bipolarclowns: i meanbt cheap but better
mmmm Johnny Depp: she was only a cheap brazilian prostitute cuz thats the only people ur mom goes for
bipolarclowns: touche i thought, touche
mmmm Johnny Depp: lets go learn how to fence i thought, lets go learn how to fence...
bipolarclowns: and so we did
bipolarclowns: so we could be cool like roman
mmmm Johnny Depp: ew roman
bipolarclowns: except maybe cool wasnt the right word to describe roman
mmmm Johnny Depp: he still freaks me out
mmmm Johnny Depp: i thought
bipolarclowns: she caught herslf quickly
bipolarclowns: never letting us know deep inside how she hungered for romans angst ridden lips reciting her gitchified poetry for all eternity,
bipolarclowns: jessica realized finally how horrible she was at typing, i mean wow, it was sad
mmmm Johnny Depp: disgusted, chloe recalled the last statement she endured from roman, while still under his spell. chloe then gagged violently and fell to the ground, limbs spread about her.
bipolarclowns: jessica at first laughed at the fact chloe appeared to be in pain, then realizing that was mean, she considered not laughing, but then continued to anyway
bipolarclowns: his spell? thought jessica, more like, ur taste in guys being angsty
mmmm Johnny Depp: archie wasnt angsty
mmmm Johnny Depp: oh god i miss him, and i hate that i miss him
bipolarclowns: oh, well, for manwhores then, HAPPY? thought jessica
mmmm Johnny Depp: what about...? oh shit your right. OH SHIT YOUR RIGHT.
mmmm Johnny Depp: chloe then suffered a fatal stroke
bipolarclowns: heheh, strokes, ur silly! thought jessica! until chloe continued not moving
bipolarclowns: considering going for help jessica realized she was hungry and went to go find fod first
bipolarclowns: and yes fod is better then food

bipolarclowns: ur face
SykoWaffler: ouch
SykoWaffler: did u think o that by yourself
SykoWaffler: or did u need Snuggle's help?
bipolarclowns: maybe i did!
bipolarclowns: dont bring him into it!

I love my friends,

love like whoa.</P yes, I'm also bored, but huzzah for blondie tomorrow and maybe rocky hooror. Leah so needs to come : ( - the weird one oh and, HAPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BIRRRRRRRRRRTTHHHHHHHHHHHDAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYY SEXAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY THEOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! YE! MY SEXAYASSEDYANKEEGFSLUTBITHCHWHOREPROSTITUEMOTHERFUCKERILOVEYOUYOUFILTHYSLUTBAG yes. again.

"... As loud, as hell,

2004-08-17T23:13:20Z

a,
ringing bell..."

Frank Black's voice= KINKYBONDAGE::ORGASM ORGASM ORGASM ORGASM ORGASM ORGASM ORGASM:: sex
Theres this line in "No. 13 Baby"
where he sings "I'm in a state"
:: orgasms to death::

SOOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOD!
AUGH I LOVE THE PIXIES!

Haga, since when my class are seniors all the cool people will basically be gone,
me and Stone have figured out where we're going abroad to,
and it made me laugh,
laugh like whoa!

Basicaly since almost all the cool people that'll be left are part of the awesome latin cult,
we're going to Italy,
nd we're going to go stay with the pope as he'll be the only one who actually speaks Latin,
and then we'll make a reality tv show about it,
and ghetto-fy the popes
yo-as (<-- its Latin "yo")
(impressive aye?)

YES!
HAHAHA!
That Stone

Um, Blondie concert, Alastair!
You are so not allowed to go with Dylan!
Because I said so!
And you're coming with me!
And So Is My GF Lee!
And Kyzzile
you must come!

And
I'm stil a bit paranoid,
So,
I'm going to try not to implode,
but,
HOORAY FOR OTHER JESSICA!
Because she is super awesome cool!

Thats basically it,
except,
I'm bored,
and still angsty,
which is really pathetic,
:: goes off to put on eyeliner and slit wrists::

- Galatea

"... You bettter runrunrun..."

2004-08-15T03:37:10Z

bipolarclowns: yeah, sex with u sux
justgray608: w/e hoe
bipolarclowns: im a, tool for gardening?
justgray608: of coarse
justgray608: that and other yard work
justgray608: and perhaps my taxes
justgray608: =-Oi love yew
justgray608: damnit!
bipolarclowns: NO YOU DONT!
justgray608: :-*
justgray608: im allergic to bullshit
justgray608: *coughs*
justgray608: thou is loved...

YES! CAMERON!
I LOVE THAT FLAMINGLITTLEEMOKID!

injaeia: YAY!
injaeia: I love you too because your head is unexploded.
bipolarclowns: oh, so, its for my unexploded head huh?
bipolarclowns: wopw
bipolarclowns: that sounded so bad
injaeia: haha
injaeia: yes. I like head better before, uh, nevermind. XD

HAHAHAHA!
NYSSA!
WOO!

and,
there was a great one with leah but its on hers so yea-ahs.

Alastair,
I think I'll be able to go to the Blondie concert with you,
so, you're not allowed to be mad at me,
well,
actually you are,
but,
you shouldn't be since I'm having your babies.

The Chris thing was,
as awkward as I predicted,
but,
he still makes me happy,
I don't know,
his friends are all
whoa,
and mine are all,
debate,
and I'm all,
debate team people are cool
( i never see my HoMeBoY brizzandon anymore :()

and, other, not so socially awkward people tend to make me uncomfortable...

And then my head EXPLODED!

But, it was because, um, I sort of forgot to eat today,
specifically because my stomach hated me,

and,

LEE/LEIGH IS SOOOOOOOOOO MY GF TOO NOW!
YES!
I WIN!
NO MORE PROBATION!

Hmm, I'm starting to think Alix is gonna ditch me on the whole new york times and coffee and voting,
and by voting I meann sex,
and by sex I mean,
I BE A PIRATE!
ARRRRR!!!
(wow, my attention span died when my head exploded)
but eh I'll go hang with someone else ho.

- head of the movement to make "its quote nyssa day!" a national holiday

i so mean to roman,
i tried to see how many times i could get him to say "yes" and then bothered him about it,

bipolarclowns: anyway
xnewxbloodx: yes?
bipolarclowns: YOU SAUID IT!
xnewxbloodx: said what?
bipolarclowns: AHHH!
bipolarclowns: ahhh!
xnewxbloodx: yes?
bipolarclowns: THERE IT WAS AGAIN!
xnewxbloodx: i don't follow
bipolarclowns: AHHAHAHAHAHA!
bipolarclowns: hey roman
xnewxbloodx: yes?
bipolarclowns: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
bipolarclowns: OHH!
bipolarclowns: ahhahahahahahga, i love u roman
xnewxbloodx: what?
bipolarclowns: we should hang out soon
xnewxbloodx: we should
bipolarclowns: dammit
xnewxbloodx: yes?
bipolarclowns: :-D YEEEE!!!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!!! AGAIN!
bipolarclowns: <3

good times...

Shipgillao...... -TUH!

2004-08-14T13:28:36Z

Wow,
I feel really horrible about yesterday,
Alastair I am so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so sorry for not showing up.

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
I love you Alastair!!!!

I didn't get to go to rocky horror either,
my parents decided I needed to babysit,
I didn't get home till four,
but I fell asleep on her couch 11ish,
and when I got home 4ish I was completely awake and couldn't fall back asleep,
so now I'm like passout at any moment mode,
and my stomach is hating me for not getting much or welltimed sleep,
I'm sorry.

Chris got back last night and I'm supposed to hang out with him and two of his random female friends today,
but,
thats going to be really really awkward because I'm still sort of awkward around him,
and with two people I don't know,
and considering last time I saw him I was a good bit awkward
despite Leah being there, who I actually do know,
It just sounds like bad stuff,
Maybe after bailing out on so many people yesterday I might as well fall off the face of the earth completely

I have no idea what to do,
thats what I get for jumping into a relationship with someone I barely know,
I guess I'll suck it up and be uncomfortable,
if it even works out today...

Yes, the sleep/stomach stuff is making me more stressed out and paranoid then usual...
So now I'm just sort of "AUGH EVERYONE HATES ME!
ANGST SUICIDE!
THE GOVERNMENTS TRYING TO KILL ME!!!!!!"

BUT BUT!
Caitlin was there yesterday at school,
and,
she gave me a bracelet to remind me of all the hippy babies we're goping to make when she gets back from Ecuador,

I'm going to try and go calm down,

yes,
I shall go molest,
er,
speak with the oh so wonderful soapy sophie sophAY
ahhahahahaha!
you're horrible,
but it makes me love you more!

<3

- I'm sure Stone's given me some weird nicname in the past few days,
but,
I'm not so capable of thought at this moment
so,
SHIPGILLAO....
-T!
again

"...PIGMAN..."

2004-08-13T01:28:47Z

Eric Estrada or however you spell his name is definantly my hero,

um,
IM GOING TO SEE NAPOLEON DYNAMITE WITH ALASTAIR TOMORROW!
WOO!
I miss chris : (

I spent like all of today just posting poetry on deviantart
so if u want to lagh at some of my pathetic poetry

http://yossarion.deviantart.com/

ho!
Which reminds me,
it really makes me laugh how al these other people were leaving theo thee gushy "IMISSYOU!!!"
notes when all I left him was
"HO!"

I'm so awesome,
and by awesome I mean,
not so much so...

My life is boring,
Kati's last entry seemed really depressed,
I <3 you Kati!
You=cool
don't be sad!
I'm here for you!
Times a MILLION!

- the "hooker,
WITH CLASS!"
" I've got needs!"
( hahaha, yes, hooray for Stone)

" The weight of the world

2004-08-12T02:12:21Z

is love.
Under the burden
of solitude,
under the burden
of dissatisfaction
the weight,
the weight we carry
is love.
Who can deny?
In dreams
it touches
the body,
in thought
constructs
a miracle,
in imagination
anguishes
till born
in human--
looks out of the heart
burning with purity--
for the burden of life
is love,
but we carry the weight
wearily,
and so must rest
in the arms of love
at last,
must rest in the arms
of love.
No rest
without love,
no sleep
without dreams
of love--
be mad or chill
obsessed with angels
or machines,
the final wish
is love
--cannot be bitter,
cannot deny,
cannot withhold
if denied:
the weight is too heavy
--must give
for no return
as thought
is given
in solitude
in all the excellence
of its excess.
The warm bodies
shine together
in the darkness,
the hand moves
to the center
of the flesh,
the skin trembles
in happiness
and the soul comes
joyful to the eye--
yes, yes,
that's what
I wanted,
I always wanted,
I always wanted,
to return
to the body
where I was born."

How could you not love Allen Ginsburg...

Man, when did I become so fucking angsty again???
I have no reason to be so bleh, and antipeople, but,
I don't know.

On Rocky Horror,
everyone come this friday,
EVEREEEEEEEEE-ONEEEEEEEE!!!
We could go aroundb my birthday, but,
I hate birthday stuff to be honest,
and,
its in the general area of it this weeekend,
so we should all go then.

I think it may be a result of some conversation I had a while ago,
the subject of my best friend was brought up and I realized to my dismay I have not had one in over a year now,
not since Emma left...

And, I have, a good deal of friends, but,
I don't know,
theres a certain level of closeness I want to someone but I can't seem to find it,
possibly because I still feel quite connected to Emma even without her here.

Okay, yeah, it doesn't matter,
I'll stop my rambling/ranting

yes, the cave im going to go live in,
its now officialy a XhXcX XCAVEX SQUARED!!!!!

- " farmer broen"
AH HA HA HA HA HA HA!
I love u kyle!
: P

LOVE LYRICS FOR KATI!

2004-08-10T02:07:17Z

:: runs to kati through feild, only mentally and without the field or actual running or anything::

Yeah,
we're so cool.

For my awesome Kati chicka:

"...
I'll be your mirror
Rflect what you are,
If you don't know
I'll, be the wind,
The rain and the sunset,
The light on your door,
To show that you're home,
When you think that night has seen your mind,
That inside you're twisted and unkind,
Let me stand to show that you are blind,
Please put down your hands,
cuz i see you..."

"... Forever may I love you and forever may you,
dreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee-eeeeaaaaammmm..."

"... I first met you down on lover's lane,
the birds were insane,
flapping all about,
softly you would sing,
swinging on your swing,
it wasn't night it wasn't day,
you're just the girl of my dreams..."

"... thought of you as my mountain top,
thought of you as my peak..."

"... I called your name from a distance,
I knew you were the one..."

And of course, the oh so classic:

"If not for you,
Babe I couldn't find the door,
Couldn't even see the floor,
I'd be sad and blue,
If not for you,

If not for you,
Babe I'd lay awake all night,
Wait for the morning light,
To shine in through,
But it would not be new,
If not for you,

If not for you,
My sky would fall,
Rain would gather too,
Without your love I'd be nowhere at all,
I'd be lost if not for you,
And you know it's true,

If not for you,
My sky would fall,
Rain would gather too,
Without your love I'd be nowhere at all,
Oh,
What would I do,
If not for you,

If not for you,
Winter would have no spring,
Couldn't hear the robin sing,
I just wouldn't have a clue,
Anyway it wouldn't ring true,
If not for you."

I am such a dork,
oh yes,
I am master of all that is lameness,
but it amused me,
and I do love that Kati.
mmm mmm.
:)
- "... despite all the amputations you know you could still
go out and dance to the rock and roll station..."
AHHAHAHAHAHA!
BEST LYRICS EVER!
yay,
now that gloomy sense of dread isn't hanging over me quite as much
I just wish I knew what it was,
I'm so messed up
:: goes off to live in a cave::

".. cuz its all in her mind..."

"... Pink moon gonna get you..."

2004-08-09T22:51:07Z

So, on the last couple days,
(yeah, I'll try to summarize...)
Paly went well both nights,
Second night Caitlin and Alix and KATI(<3)! showed up,
Caitlin and Alix invited us to hang with them but then they sort of ditched us,
which is okay because it was better being alone with Kati.
She IS the coolest person ever.
ever.
I gave her my rose.
:)
And then,
We wandered up and down little five points that night just talking.
I always have these perfect moments with Kati,
that night it was when we were lying on the grass in front of some house type things, just talking,
it was perfect.
Absolutely gorgeousperfectlybrilliantgoodfun.

Oh, I love that kati,
Imma marry her!
WOO!!!!!! (<-- is a sad dork,
but a sad dork who loves you Kati!!!! <3<3<3<3
haha, yeah, I have some problems....)

My classes are okay,
lunch was cool but if I get the schedule change I need I'll be in a different one,
and I change next semester no matter what because of my class then.
I met a cool random girl, saw Tye, Sophie, and Brandon.
:)
And saw all my non youth creates but still awesome friends,
Missed my bus that afternoon but Roman let me go home with him and we had this really interesting debate on monogamy at his house.

Pretty good overall I suppose,
though I miss old rusty nasty yellow Grady..
:(

Don't know what else to say except that despite the overwhelmingly large amount of good happy things in my life,
theres this weird sense of dread hanging over me,
It's basically like,
I feel like something bad is about to go down, or is going down,
or, maybe, theres just,
something/someone/orsuch
missing....

hmm, who knows.

Ha, probably all this Nick Drake I've been listening to.

I hope it is at least.

I love you all you crazy Grady people!
<3 :P :)

- :: goes off to listen to more of Alex's super cool clasical techno::

"... In my life

2004-08-04T22:04:13Z

the furniture eats me..."

William Carlos Williams is too awesome.
They gave us headsets in rehearsal,
yeah,
we've had some good fun on those.
Rep-ra-zentin' da red plant bitches!!!
Southeast side ho!

Sophie made me meet some of her crazy rising freshman friends and now I'm even more disillusioned,
apparently almost (notice the "amost") all the incoming freshmeee-en are:
stupid,
conceited,
bitchy,
and, worst of all,
TALLER THEN ME!!!
WHAT IS THAT!?!
Wow, i really hope we at least weren't quite that bad...

I stole-duh-did this from Chloe

Thirteen things you like:
1) Chris
2) Tabloids
3) The people who read tabloids and believe them
4) Rain
5) Cuddling (cue “awwwws”)
6) Writing my oh so awesome poetry
7) Poetry in general
8) The book Catch-22
9) People who don’t like Shakespeare
10) Reading
11) Socially Awkward Dorks!!!! (they make me feel not so alone)
12) GARTH! EXXXXXXCELENT! ::does “foxy lady” dance::
13) XhXcX CHERRAYS!!!!
Twelve AWESOME movies:
1) Jump Tomorrow
2) Love Liza
3) Hedwig and the Angry Inch
4) The Rocky Horror Picture Show!!!!!
5) Fight Club
6) American History X
7) Anything else with Edward Norton’s sexay self in it
8) Kill Bill
9) Requiem for a Dream
10) Donnie Darko
11) iono
And the sad dorky not “ I’m a XhXcX teenager who lists all the crazeeee cult indie films” one:
12) Gone With the Wind (YAY DWEEBAY HOPELESS ROMANTICS!!!)
Eleven good bands/artists:
1) The Pixies
2) Bob Dylan
3) Ween
4) The Velvet Underground
5) Radiohead
6) Pink Floyd
7) Primus
8) Led Zeppelin
9) Beck
10) Morrissey
11) David Bowie
Ten things about you ... physically:
1) Secksy (except, minus the secsky…)
2) 5 foot 9ish?
3) dark brown hair with highlights
4) (this is sort of physical?) Freakishly high seven year old, “Sweet Valley High” (as Chloe put it) voice
5) Really large (size 11) feet
6) tiny lips
7) freckles!!! Wooo!
8) giant radioactive tumor on my neck
9) KOOLAID!
10) KOOLAID AGAIN!
Nine good friends:
1) anyone
2) who
3) enjoys
4) being
5) around
6) the
7) oh so
8) wiggalicious
9) Jessica
( I love
EV-ER-EEE-ONE!!!!
::is a filthy hippy::)
Eight favorite foods/drinks:
1) tiramisu
2) vanilla coke
3) milky way bars
4) sex
5) notebooks
6) live mice
7) roadkill
8) incest
Seven things you wear daily:
1) jeans
2) the jelly bracelets chris gave me : )
3) other clothing items
4) my… skin… I guess…
5) 42
6) 8
7) 13
Six things that annoy you:
1) “lol”
2) “lol”
3) “lol”
4) people who are too fucking lazy to pronounce my whole name and call me “Jess” or “Jessie”
5) Clichés
6) “open-minded” people who are so judgmental of close-minded people that they become the close-minded people
Five things you touch everyday:
1) myself,
(I couldn’t resist:)
2) Some sort of writing u-ten-sil
3) pApEr
4) my cd player
5) mieieieiei cddddddddddddssssssss
Four shows you watch:
1) Sealab 2021
2) ATHF
3) Home Movies
4) Family Guy
Three people you have a crush on:
1) Celene Dion (oh, those canadadians…)
2) Fabio
3) Michael Jackson
Two things that you hate:
1) phones
2) specifically cell phones
One thing you love:
1) CHRIS!
And,
THE PIXIES!

- Indizzle

"Sitting here wishing on a cement floor,

2004-08-03T01:59:43Z

Just wishing that I had just something you wore,
I'd put it on when I go lonely,
Will you take off your dress and send it to me,
I miss your kissing and I miss your head,
And a letter in your writing doesn't mean you're not dead,
Run outside in the desert heat,
Make your dress all wet and send it to me,
I miss your soup and I miss your bread,
And a letter in your writing doesn't mean you're not dead,
So spill your breakfast and drip your wine,
Just wear that dress when you,
di-e-i-e-ine,
Sitting here wishing on a cement floor,
Just wishing that I had just something you wore,
Bloody your hands on a cactus tree,
Wipe it on your dress and send it to me,
Sitting here wishing on a cement floor
Just wishing that I had just something you wore."

:: is in love::

What Happens When Jessica Is Bored Out Of Her Mind.

2004-08-01T21:43:34Z

CRAZY ONE. You need crazy partners. You dont mind
if he/she takes alc or drugs or smokes he is
not allowed to be boring. Open-Minded for
everything our partner should spent much time
with you. Your partner shall be spontaneous and
love danger. It is not that important if she/he
is rich or if he/she cuts his nails she/he must
follow you .You take the domination over the
relationship, you decide most of the times
where to go. If the sex is not good (any
more)you quit the relationship
For you it is better to leave than to see your
love restrained.
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.

~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
brought to you by Quizilla

Half true, half not,
I don’t think I’m that dominating,
or crazy judgemental of the sex.

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<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/C/coreina/1080319916_ilderaaaa8.jpg" border="0" alt="8"> CRAZY ONE. You need crazy partners. You dont mind if he/she takes alc or drugs or smokes he is not allowed to be boring. Open-Minded for everything our partner should spent much time with you. Your partner shall be spontaneous and love danger. It is not that important if she/he is rich or if he/she cuts his nails she/he must follow you .You take the domination over the relationship, you decide most of the times where to go. If the sex is not good (any more)you quit the relationship
For you it is better to leave than to see your love restrained.
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always message me or tell me how I can improve that quiz. Ill sure write back.
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Half true, half not,
I don’t think I’m that dominating,
or crazy judgemental of the sex.

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/C/coolcatcatherine/1059512927_deringeyes.jpg" border="0" alt="Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and as many say "Your head is in the clouds." "> Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and as many say "Your head is in the clouds."
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ODD YOUR FACE!!!!
OHHH!

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/V/vinacross/1041995613_ensitiveGF.gif" border="0" alt="You're Sensitive and you'd like to stay that way.."> -Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to stay that way. Sorry,listened to a bit too much Jewel there. You're sweet and very emotionally charged. You definitely love the person you're with, and always want to know how they're feeling so you can make sure they're happy.
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Jewel???
Eh.
She bothers me…
I’m NOT sensitive!!!
:: cries::

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/1033888669_ffavoidant.jpg" border="0" alt="HASH(0x88e437c)"> avoidant
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“retardedness”?
that’s mean…
: (

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/M/m3rCuRy/1081106580_ugularsLSD.jpg" border="0" alt="LSD"> You're addicted to.....

LSD!
Wow what you must go through every day. LSD gives intense hallucinations and offen makes you think you can do things that no human can. I wouldn't try to pretend your a bird and play on top of a tall building anytime soon.
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YES! I WIN!!!

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/O/omgitscraig/1079118955_edZeppelin.gif" border="0" alt="Led Zeppelin"> Classic rock! Without you the other genres wouldn't exist! You are the raw and original sound of rock! Other genres may try to imitate your rawness, but they can never be like you!
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Robert plant=sex

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/G/ghettokitty/1047300968_uizgoodbye.jpg" border="0" alt="goodbye"> You have a goodbye kiss- much passion and longing, but never lasting.
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awwww!!!!
:: tear::

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/E/EerieFreek/1061473160_GIRLY-GIRL.JPG" border="0" alt="GIRLY GIRL - Clever Kitty"> A GIRLY-GIRL. You dont have a lot of self-esteem and people are always bringing you down for being sad. What do they know, anyway? You feel like youre too mature for your age and are frustrated by the trend-followers who refuse to accept you because youre not like them. 
Your virtues: Intelligence, understanding nature, modesty. 
Your flaws: Lack of social life, inferiority complex, timidity.. 
 
You might like this game, but maybe it's not your thing. Take a look anyway if you are curious: 
www.life-blood.vze.com
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damn you!
I’m not that crazy feminine!!!
I don’t think…

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/T/theandrea/1034278675_ctionhands.jpg" border="0" alt="holding hands"> hand holding - you like to be in constant physical contact with your special someone but you don't want to take things too quickly.
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yeah, I need a life…

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/I/Iceangel143/1078089874_ctureslost.JPG" border="0" alt="HASH(0x8b3d784)"> You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure what that can always mean, because it can be defined in many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls were the spirits of passed away people who are neither in heaven nor hell. They walk the earth, brooding mysteriously, always appearing when you expect it least. So hence, if you have a Lost Soul, then you are probably very insecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box, you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dont know your place. You seemingly dont have a place in society or an interest. You are a very capricious person, and are confused and frustrated about where you belong. You crave for the sense and feeling of home-but have not obtained it yet.
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Haha, I think they meant “you’re” not “your”
but, so, apparently I’m the most antisocial person ever..
Ye.

::is bored::

injaeia: You're weird. :-P
bipolarclowns: yeah, people keep telling me that...
injaeia: Think it means anything? ;-)
bipolarclowns: nope.
bipolarclowns: :-D

-"...You can keep yourself inside,
But you know you cannot lie,
When the devil's your only friend..."
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Though I don't really like these quizzy things,

2004-08-01T00:32:10Z

I'm really bored.
( I stole it from my crazy sexay Soapie Sophie Sophay)
SO HERE!

-----------------DO YOU-----------------
-- Cuss: Hell NAW!
-- Take a shower everyday: for the most part yes.
-- Have a crush(es): OMG OMG! LIEK
No, not really,
not a crush anyway.
-- Who are they?: Um, if I don’t have a crush how can I have it on anyone?
Fine, I,
I have a crush on Fabio!!!
::runs off crying::
-- Do you think you've been in love?: Maybe…
-- Want to go to college: BROWN BITCHES!
-- Like high school: It’s better then the previous ones.
-- Want to get married: Not entirely sure, perhaps, I don’t really believe in marriage, as its sort of a religious institution and, I’m pretty anti-religion and don’t see much of a purpose in it, but it might be amusing.
-- Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: Haha, no, I’ve been told I look like a cripple when I type…
-- Get motion sickness: Occassionally when I read in the car.
-- Think you're attractive: I just = sex (noun sex),
ho!
-- Get along with your parents: As long as I don’t come into contact with them too often.
-- Like thunderstorms: YES!
<3<3<3<3<3 thunderstorms!!!
<3
-- Play an instrument: The guitar somewhat,
not really play,
more,
use it to cause people severe pain whenever I attempt to play.

-----------------IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU-----------------
-- Drank alcohol: Oh yeah,
every frigin day,
I’m a frigin alcoholic,
I just love my alcohol…
Except,
not really…
-- Smoked: …
No.
-- Done a drug: Nope.
-- Had Sex: :( Unfortunately no…
:: tear::
-- Made Out: Almost exactly a month ago was the last time,
:: is make out deprived::
-- Gone to the mall: Yes, once, and this girl jump hugged me and I didn’t recognize her at first so I was all awkward and weird, and I think she thinks I hate her…
:: is sad::
-- Eaten sushi: I wish. Being a vegetarian= not fun…
Damn principles…
-- Been on stage: haha, everyday oddly enough…
-- Gone skating: Nah, I’m a horrible skater, and physical effort is eh.
-- Made homemade cookies: …
…
…
Er, no..
-- Been in love: Um, I need some time on that one…
-- Dyed your hair: Nope, not in a couple monthes actually.
-- Stolen anything: Not since I was little.

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER-----------------
-- Flown on a plane?: Yeahssss
-- Missed school because it was raining?: No, but that’d be the coolest reason ever.
-- Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: Haha, yes, my boyfriend.
-- Cried during a Movie?: I,
don’t really cry.
You have to like,
have emotions for that right.
Psshawww
-- Ever thought an animated character was hot?: Only Luna’s sexay manga ones...
-- Had an imaginary friend: HES NOT IMAGINARY!!!!!
-- Cut your hair: No.
-- Had crush on a teacher?: Eh, maybe a little on Mack,
but not really,
especially since hes not really a teacher.
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?: Um, not a game per say…
Har har,
I jus keedding
-- Been in a fight: Oh, never.
I'm too cool for that,
too XhXcX I mean.

----------------THE FUTURE-----------------
-- Age you hope to be married: If ever, in my twenties..
-- Numbers and Names of Children: Children?
Um, whoa, I don’t know,
I’m having children with a whole bunch of people…
-- How do you want to die?: Hit,
BY A CAR!
Or,
Doing heroin!
OR!
I don’t know.
-- What do you want to be ?: ANGSTY WRITER/STARVINGPOET TINY CHEAP APARTMENT RESIDER DOING PHOTOGRAPHY ON THE SIDE
-- What country would you most like to visit?: Ireland

-----------------OPPOSITE SEX-----------------
-- Best eye/hair color: Green, or maybe blue.
-- Short or long hair: Eh, I usually go for long but my sex god #1 has short hair so it really doesn’t matter.
-- Best height: Around mine, maybe a little taller.
-- Best weight: Anything as long as hes not built,
yes, I am a fucking freak but six packs turn me off…
-- Best first date location: I don’t know, park? Coffee shop?
-- Best first kiss location: A park, on a dark rainy day, or, cuddling on my couch to led zeppelin… 

-----------------NUMBER OF-----------------
-- Number of kisses you've given: Um, really sincere passionate ones? That aren’t sloppy crazy makeout ones? Erm, five or six…. Yeah, Imma say, making out doesn’t count on this one.
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: None?
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: Whoever.
-- Number of CDs that I own: In the forties range.
-- Number of tattoos: Don’t have any.

-----------------Favorites-----------------
-- Shampoo: 7
-- Favorite Color: Grey
-- Day/Night: Night
-- Summer/Winter: Winter
-- Lace or Satin: Lace
-- Favorite Food: Tiramisu, or pumpernickel bread…
-- Favorite Movies: Jump Tomorrow maybe, or Dr. Strangelove
-- Favorite sport: Hockey,
and,
being angsty.

-----------------RIGHT NOW-----------------
-- Wearing: white tank top, a black stripedy skirt over jeans, and crazy fluorescenty looking stripedy socks
(stripes are good
stripes make you happy
you love stripes
you neeeeed stripes)
-- Drinking: Nothing
-- Thinking about: A lot of things…
-- Listening to: My favorite cd ever.

-----------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS-----------------
-- Cried: Once again, I don’t really cry…
-- Worn jeans: Yes…
I’m wearing jeans…
-- Met someone new online: No, but, I spoke to Hannah for the first time in about half a year, and Diogenes for the first time in almost a year.
-- Done laundry: Why??? HUH HUH??? YOU WANNA MAKE SUMTHIN OF IT!
BITCH!
-- Drove a car: No.
-- Talked on the phone: Phones scare me,
Phones = Jessica being more awkward then usual.

-----------------FRIENDS AND LIFE-----------------
-- Do you ever wish you had another name?: Sort of, but, I don’t know of any names that I like better.
-- Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: BOTH!
I WIN!
But only a serious boyfriend…
-- Do you like anyone?: EDWARD NORTON!
HE=SEXSEXSEXSEXSEXSEX times A MILLION!
Oh,
And I guess that Chris kid…
<3
-- Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: Hmm, I’d say nopne of my friends are as muh of a neurotic loser as me,
but,
I’m a sexay neurotic loser!

-- Who have you known the longest of your friends?: That I still keep regularly in contact with?
I guess I’ll say Jason though we don’t talk much anymore,
I’ve only known him three years or so, but, I’m horrible at keeping up with people, and, I move around a good bit…
-- Are you close to any family member?: My stepdad.
-- Who do you hang around the most?: It changes, no one really too consistently since my last bestest best friendiendiend moved away a year ago… And I haven’t really had a new one since…
: (
-- What's the best feeling in the world?: When you’re listening to a beautiful song blaring, while cuddling with someone you really care about, and theres this perfect silence between you.
-- Worst Feeling?: When it hits you how much you have to get done, really quickly, after procrastinating for a semester…
-- What time is it now?: 8:28
PM!
YO!

And this ( stolen from nyssa) amused me

Feminine

What's your sexual appeal?
brought to you by Quizilla

I got that from putting Charles Manson as my hero,
oh yes!

I have no life.
- the "...sassyfrassylassie..."

EmOtIoNaL rOlLeRcOaStEr

2004-07-30T00:31:23Z

Today was unusually good actually.

So on my list of females who I'm marrying/ having babies with/ being the boyfriend of/ being owned by/ own,
I now have:
Leah ( I still have the ring! I think... somewhere...), Luna( mmm, David Bowie...), Soapie Sophie Sophay (YEEE! TORONTO!!!! YEEE! MY CUDDLY LITTLE GIRL : P <3 SOPHAY!!!!), Nyssa ( I <3 seseseses my nyssa!!!! mutant cat children!!! whooo!), Caitlin (hippy babies! in, MIAMI!), Morgan ( aww, morgans so cute, and twisted...), Alix ( Douglas Adams = YES! :: votes with:: <3<3) and Katie ( <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 RXAISON!!!!! OH HELL YEAHS!)

I've decided to just call them my girlfriends,
I'm such a slutty ho/pimpette,
yeah..
you know me,
with my...
sluttiness...
I guess...

Oh, and Brandon is my home boy!
LIKE JESUS!
But,
BETTER!

Erm, camp was better today then its been. I ended up helping with panels after so I got to hang out with Mack, who, it ends up,
is like,
super crazy cool.

I don't know, not much happened before then,
except,
I hung out with Roman some.

Oh, and I got a letter back from Chris which was cool.
YEE!

So, I am happy.

School starts in like a week,
which is sort of lame, but eh,
my summer basically for all commen purposes ended when this camp started.

PICK UP LINES!

Thats what we did, Imani, Theo, Cameron, Tye, Brandon, and myself made a list of pickuplines.
Yes,
I know
I'm too cool.
: P

DA PICKUP LINE!!
izzles...

From Morgan:
1. Do your legs hurt from running in my dreams all night?
2. If I follow you home, will you keep me?
3. I'm writing a telephone book, may I have your number?
4. All those curves and me with no brakes.
5. Bits make bytes, but nibbles turn me on.
6. Nothing says "I love you" better then 6 hours of nonstop sex.
7. A person can be poor on history, but great on dates.
8. A curved line is the loveliest distance between two people.
9. I only like 2 types of girls- domestic and imported.
10. Didn't I meet you in some other hallucination.
11. Be good and you'll be lonely.
12. I just naturally respect pretty girls in tight sweaters.
13. I don't dance, but I'd love to hold you while you do.
14. I can't whistle at my girlfriend... she leaves me breathless!
15. Any man who can see through a woman is sure missing a lot.
16. I feel great, I don't kiss bad either!
17. If I touch you, will you groan for me? Can I test you out before I purchase?
18. How do you taste with whipped cream?
19. I like your lips, all of them.
20. Heaven's missing an angel tonight.

From Tye:
1. Did it hurt? When you fell from Heaven?
2. You spread, I'll extend/ eat (different variations), and we will flow together all night.
3. I'll bet those legs meet in paradise.

From Cameron:
1. If I love you today will you let me leave you tomorrow?
2. Damn you're sexy, oh sorry thats a mirror.
3. Your legs(/butt for cameron :P :) remind me of peanut butter, soft and easy to spread.

From Brandon:
1. If I ask you to conjugate will you decline?
2. A classic: Nice shoes, wanna fuck?

From Jessica (I'm so special):
1. A classic: Have sex with me. (Yeah, I'm just so clever, har har)
2. My Favorite ever and I'd probably have sex with you for just using it because its so horrible: If I told you you had a nice body would you hold it against me?

From Imani:
1. Do you want a 6 inch or a foot long?
2. How many bones are in your body? May I add one to the collection?

And, from that crafty Theo:
1. Can I put my thingie in your thingie?

Having a life is for,
LOZERZZZZ!!!!

Jessica is tizzired.

- " ...take me now,
fuck me later..

"... I'm sendin a letter,

2004-07-24T02:14:53Z

I'll send it right to you..."

So I got my letter to Chris sent cuz Leah gave me the adress,
and I love you Leah!!!
And I was going to write a bunch of other stuff that I told Sophay I would,
but,
I'm crazy tired and bleck,
I'm sorry,
maybe tomorrow,
today was eh,
skipped camp to go pick up my little brother,
At least i got out of camp.

More later.

-is asleep